As I begin to look to a new year with new possibilities and new challenges, I am ever reminded of 2008. Looking back I never would have imagined my life would have changed the way it did in just twelve short months. For starters, around January 2008 I made one of the biggest life-changing decisions of my life. I decided to be my kids’ teacher. I can not begin to explain the myriad of emotions, thoughts and feelings I had. For one, this was a path I never imagined myself following or even contemplating. Secondly, I don’t see myself as being gifted in the abilities as a teacher. But alas, all is well and we have had a blessed school year so far! God is good and has blessed us continually!
The event that will never leave me is the memory of a dear friend. It was on August 11, 2008 that I heard the words, very calmly, out of her mouth, “I have cancer”. It took a while for those words to sink in and the gravity of the situation. I remember the next day, my friend calling me, happy as usual, and asking me and the kids to come visit. We sat on the banks of the lake as her husband did his thing with the kids (boating, fishing, swinging…). She told me all she knew and that she knew her time was short. I, of course, cried. We also laughed during our visit as I reminded her that even though she was sick, she would still be the one to hold us all together and remind us all that God was in control. It was over the next several weeks that I learned what true faith was all about. As her body started it’s quick decline, that smile was still there. Her attitude was forever positive and her thoughts were not of self-pity but of taking care of those left behind. She knew her destination was Heaven and I remember her saying, “I knew I had a ticket to Heaven but I never figured I would be cashing it this soon!” and of course, we laughed.
I was one of the few ladies that was asked and trusted to take care of this special lady in her last few weeks of life. Out of all the things I have done in my life, this was by far the easiest and hardest job I have ever had. I loved my friend and would have done anything for her or her husband. That was the easy part. But watching my friend’s earthly shell deteriorate, never her spirit, but watching her body die was the hardest thing I have ever experienced. I would not trade it for anything this world could give me. It was during those times that I came to learn more about God’s love, His grace and His mercy. My friend taught me so much about God during the 5 years I had with her but it was in her last 2 months that I learned the most.
As the end came near we all still continued to pray for healing but it became apparent that her healing would not happen on this earth but in Heaven. So on Sunday, September 28th, 2008 at around 2:30 a.m. we got the call. We had been with her almost continually during those last few days. We had all said our goodbyes and just prayed for God to call her home. It is what she wanted and ultimately we wanted for her as well, no matter how much we were going to miss her. During the weeks that followed, some days were such a struggle. I juggled between trying to resume our normal schedule but also help fulfill a promise I had made to my friend. I’m still trying to fulfill her promise. Life has gone on but never without thinking about my friend and how life has changed. Which brings me back to thinking about the start of a new year. Never would I have imagined a year ago that our time together would be so short. I thank God for 2008, even it’s hard times because I have learned that I am to “Count all things joy, my brothers, when you meet trials of various kinds, for you know that the testing of your faith produces steadfastness. And let steadfastness have its full effect, that you may be perfect and complete, lacking in nothing.” (James 1:2-4 ESV). I have no idea what God has in store for me and my family this year but I know Romans 8:28-29 holds true.
“And we know that all things work together for good to those who love God, to those who are called according to His purpose.” (NKJV)